This photo, taken a couple of years ago, pretty much represents how I’ve been feeling for a while – totally out of focus. It’s not my eyesight that hasn’t been out of focus (though I must say that after I got my new glasses this week, things have become somewhat clearer to my eyes), but my mental attitude.
Why am I feeling like this? A big part of it is that I will go into a day without any tasks to do. The only thing that I was doing was blogging, and I’d been leaving it to the last thing I do in the day, producing some rather poor results. When I don’t set any tasks, I start to feel overwhelmed with what there is to do, and my natural instinct is to almost shut down and whine about not being able to get anything done. When it happens, I become a pain in the arse to be around. I also begin to think that I can’t do things that, if I were to set them as tasks, I’d be able to do with ease. I also get down on myself very quickly.
However, on the days when I have an idea of what I want to do – I almost always excel. You can probably notice it with some of my posts – take, for example the most recent Hump Day Hmms I’ve done – Fear of Failure and It’ll come back to bite ya…. Those were both posts I’d planned about writing on that day, and it shows because those posts have a very “human” sound to them; it’s like Snoskred commented the other day – “…it’s more you than I knew…”, meaning that the post actually sounds like it was written by me, not by some machine that possesses my body and makes posts just for the sake of posting. I like to call it the “robot” me. Trust me, you don’t want a robot to take yourself over; it’s no fun, not for you, but also for your readers.
One of the best things that I can do to help get focused is really simple – make a to-do list. Not only one for the day, but also to set out some goals for the week. For example, this week, I’ve set myself a goal of commenting on 10-15 blogs a day. Not only that, I have made a list of things that I can blog about in case I do find myself stuck for ideas about things to blog about, which happens from time to time. I also find that when I do have a to-do list, I feel a sense of accomplishment when I get the things crossed off of it, and feel like I’ve actually done something at the end of the day.
I might not be to the level of laser beam focus just yet, but making a to-do list is definitely a way to start regaining my focus.